I got accepted into college around November and while most people would be jumping for joy, I'm wallowing in student loans.
I am not the smartest student, sitting at a wopping 2.7 gpa and a 17 ACT score, honestly surprising I even got INTO college. I got into my dream college, Dakota State University and then I got into University of Central Missouri. Guess which one I'm going to? If you guessed UCMO, you are correct. My parents got mad that I actually was serious about going to going to South Dakota instead of staying in Missouri so I had to go here. They actually wanted me to go to Missouri Western but I refuse to be stuck under my parents roof for four more years. At least with UCMO I get to move out into a dorm room with people I don't even know. Speaking of people I don't know, I finally know who my roommates are. I have one person who I share a room with but two other people that I share a bathroom with. It's going to be hell.
I've been talking to Sammi, the one who is actually in my room. She seems nice and wants to grab lunch with me sometime but I can't handle that. I am socially awkward and not good at making friends. We've had a total of two conversations and I don't know how to move forward from this stage. How do we go from living in the same town, not knowing the other existed to living in the same room and hearing each other breathe? I breathe heavily because I'm a mouth breather because I was born with an extremely tiny mouth, thanks dad. And she was on her high school cheer team and she's thin and pretty. I was in my school's theatre department and I'm fat. I don't know how any of my roommates are going to like me. I really wish my friend had gotten into UCMO earlier so that I didn't need to worry about all this stuff but now I have to worry about it. It's fine. I'm fine.
I'm sure by the time August 15 rolls around, most of the things will be settled. But right now everything is just crazy. Anyway, I should really focus on my novel instead of this blog but guess what I'm not doing.
Bye.
Scared and Living
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